The Autistic Grief Process
I do not write from an academic position or as a self-proclaimed expert. I write as someone who is living with the loss I can almost not acknowledge. He’s away somewhere. He’s busy. I cannot call him to tell him of any triumphs or how I told one of my managers that I could seeContinue reading “The Autistic Grief Process”
On a Clear Day, You Can See Forever
I have not written for some time. I achieved my MA in Photography and was considering a Practiced – Based PhD. Sometimes I see where I want to head briefly then I am overcome with the demands this makes. Multi-tasking is okay sometimes but not for something so long-term. Higher Education gave me a double-edgedContinue reading “On a Clear Day, You Can See Forever”
The Visionary Photographer?
Dear Jill This missive offers a conclusion to your journey , although it is not an end at all. This is a summary and a reflection of how you arrived to the point you are at now. Your compass fluctuates but now you see where each direction leads to and to who. A genre ofContinue reading “The Visionary Photographer?”
Project – Hidden
The visual explorations and past encounters with brick walls. The social model of disability states that our environments disable us by not being accessible. New catchphrase… Remember- It takes more than a ramp to make a place ‘accessible’
Hidden in Plain Sight (part 2)
Who are the ‘hidden in plain sight? Let’s notice those around us; those who serve our coffee, those behind the cash register, those next to you on a train, those trying to put your call through to the right person, those who answer your enquiry, those who deliver your post, those who clean your school,Continue reading “Hidden in Plain Sight (part 2)”
Hiding in plain sight
Today is the day I need to disassociate to manage. I need time in my head for discourse and reflection, for thoughts to be free to astralplane across continents and seas.
The Possible Perennial
If I’m quiet, I must be ‘stable’… which is a state of inertia that I find is far from the reality. I am treading water, so am I stable or am I waiting for tiredness to overcome the efforts to remain ‘stable’. Then, perhaps, I would sink inevitably. Always reflecting, always questioning and never reallyContinue reading “The Possible Perennial”
I shall use my invisibility for good, not evil.
Groups – Think about yourself as an observer in the first instance to manage the anxiety, especially with new people, but it’s inevitable that you may not be able to connect to others in that group. Then, there’s the internal dialogue of analysing every interaction you had to sustain during the session, then that allContinue reading “I shall use my invisibility for good, not evil.”
Conversation with Myself
Every day there is such an influx of internal dialogue that creates the peaks and troughs in which my emotional state varies. Small victories become unfathomable questions of meaning and lows explore the rationality of existence. Purpose must come into it, so I tell myself that I am good enough, then I castigate the prideContinue reading “Conversation with Myself”
Exploration of Life as a Neurodiverse Creative 